Personally, I was a Buddhist, before briefly becoming an Atheist then now I’m agnostic because i’ve become so receptive of the idea of Buddhism
As my parents were Buddhists, I was raised Buddhist in my household. Growing up, was really really tough. My mom had cancer when i was at the age of 11, and I somehow took it upon myself that I was to blame. Thankfully, she survived. Hence, I developed mental disorders in the form of bipolar disorder. My heart was always heavy and i always only wanted to die. Attempted suicide thrice too. However I joined my mom in one of her meditation sessions a few days back, and i fell into a “deep sleep” afterwards. A higher power as i would describe it, told me to live a life with no regrets, and somehow that benevolence i felt from that sentence made me feel really enlightened like a huge burden has been removed off of me. I took a huge step and apologised to my parents for the troubles i’ve caused them and promised them I’ll get my life together again. I felt like it was all because of that voice, that I heard while meditating. That i felt clear of what I had to do, I’ve never felt more enlightened and in control. May I know if anyone has ever felt this way?
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