Celibacy

Hello, I am deciding to go 1 year without sexual relations and mastrubation. No orgasms basically, with the intention of eliminate my attachment to the female body and energy. I see how this attachment have basically run all my life, all my goals, all my work, all my achievements, all my disasters, all my suffering, all my lust, etc etc..all negative emotions, thoughts and actions, as well as positive emotions , thoughts and actions, has been driven by the desire of the attention and attraction to the female body and energy.

Is it anyone here who has experience with celibate, who live in a modern society? Can anyone help me?

I choose to be mindful, but my first reaction when I see a woman I find attractive is “ I want her” afterwards I correct myself, it’s only lust or a desire for companionship, and I focus on the breath. I mediate 2 hours a day, but still my attachment is still extremely strong.

I truly appreciate all input, thank you.

With love

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