Waking up/Dzogzhen path unfolding after initial glimpse/drug induced anxiety

Hi there y'all! I will try to keep it brief. About an year and half ago I stumbled upon this book called 'Waking up' by neuroscientist/philosopher Sam Harris who talked about the Dzogzhen tradition.i had an experience of cutting through the illusion of the self or rigpa or non dual awareness whatever you wanna call it. I had only practiced meditation for 10 days in a retreat prior to that. It's true that selflessness is just on the surface and pointing out instructions or self inquiry is a pretty direct way to see it. Although I have had psychedelic experience once on magic mushrooms prior to that so I guess that's why pointing out instructions worked faster than it would have otherwise. Anyways I sort of never practiced trikcho or self inquiry after that experience that much. There would be moments where I would delve into it but not like seriously "meditating" much. But whenever i consumed marijuana it automatically took me to that realization with even putting any effort. And it was always extremely pleasant and full of learning but recently I consumed some marijuana that was more potent than usual and I had sort of a bad trip kind of experience on that. I had a panic attack for the first time in my life. It was as if I was forced into an mild acid trip that I didn't intend to have. This was around 50 days ago. I haven't smoked cannabis since then but I have developed this perpetual anxiety about ego death. I reason I didn't pursue spirituality after having had the initial glimpse is because I read so many Scary things about kundalini awakening and overactive chakras on the internet and Sam Harris never truly described the aftermath of the whole process of delving into this shift of perception. I know kundalini and chakras are probably just a way of talking about the sensations or the experiences one has on the path rather than being actually there but Clearly people have had some troubling experiences and I am at a point in my where I can't get into all this. My major issue is anxiety associated with this unfolding of the path which Sam has never talked about. I don't wanna be stuck in a place where it's hard to get out of. Also I have this weird sensations in my head when I get anxiety and sometimes "Clearly seeing" helps but I still get anxiety because of not truly knowing what will/can happen.How relevant is kundalini stuff on the Dzogzhen path?Any books that are designed for post glimpse phase or the journey afterwards?Any help,especially people who are on the path? Also,should I take medication to curb moments of great anxiety?

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