I’m not sure if craving or aversion or aversion of craving.

I’m very confused about what is a smart decision in regards to diminishing craving or if it’s a type of justified aversion.

My mindfulness has gotten to the point where The line between craving and aversion is blurred and every choice seems to be both craving and aversion simultaneously.

I’m going to use a personal example, but this is far from the only one I can give.

Recently I’ve been tasked to practice taking a specific standardized test to see if I would fit in that role. I don’t see the point in doing so and I find the process physically uncomfortable most of the time. Some days I just can’t bring myself to work at all. Am is this aversion or is it a recognition of craving to please people around and achieving a goal etc. I noticed that most of the things in a Worldly sense are actually pretty painful. Even pleasure and desire are a kind of agitation that damages the mind.

The result of spending time with friends can be a fairly long “recovery “ to reality and some sense of equanimity.

Ultimately even asking this question is a bit of a craving vs aversion scenario.

I’m trying to live in this world while maintaining a level of none attachment and understanding through meditation, but I’m finding the dueling existence difficult.

Any grounded advice you can give would be appreciated.

Thank you.

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