Sex and intimacy

Ive done it. Ive rationalized it away from my mind, said its no good. Ive even told myself that i can imagine it in my mind, like i already have it, which is as close to having it as i can get.

Im 25, and i know i can, just as easily, open the dam, the flood gates again. I can say, hey, this. It will bring me great pleasure. But i know that with it will come much suffering, and toil.

So now, i look at women the same way, men. They are sexless objects, incapable of having the sex act performed upon. Its simply, not, within the realm of my perception right now, and i know the longer i hold out, the more convinced i will be that this is the path, this is the way to go.

I mean. I dont know why im writing this, maybe i just want some reassurance, or a helping hand. But this should be it, i think. If i know there is a greater pleasure, then this is a lower pleasure, one i could probably avoid.

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